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	2005.04.19  17.28 shut the FUCK up... you know those days where you just want to get away from it all but you cant? yeah thats how i feel RIGHT now Mood: pissed off

	2005.03.31  22.28 love is deep, love is high, love is long, love is wide If you read this livejournal, even if I dont speak to you often, post a memory of me. it can be anything you want. it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. then post this in your journal. see what people remember about you. Mood: content Music: Breaking Benjamin

	2005.03.26  08.06 memory lane i dont know, i just guess that ive been more vulnerable then ever at this point and when there is noone there (not saying some of you arent there for me, but i dont know if you get whaat i mean)its even harder. hell im going to be a senior next year. im not ready for a ilfe that im not sure about. im not ready... just not ready. its going to be harder knowing that many of my frineds are graduating this year and i have no choice but to let them go. its so hard that all my friends are older than me. i mean its nice because they have most likely been there and can help me or are more mature and fun to hang out with. *like going to freez king, riding in a topdown convertable in 26 degree weather, car rides to warped tour, listening to she thinks my tractors sexy, listening to country driving downtown, having threesomes in the basement, and the list goes on* i cant give those memories up for anything. i just hate to see them leave me. just so many things in my life are gone or leaving. when i lost the ferry's to new mexico, going to church just isnt the same. going to lake linganore gets me upset. when i lost good swim friends to college, going to practice isnt the same. going to starbucks and freez king with other people looses meaning, finding 5 dollars just isnt as funny, barbie and ken wont have another year on the team, and super-slut is dead. my sister going to school is just hard. its the end of childhood, the end of playing the end of hitting my head on concrete while we wrestle. and all of the senioprs graduating now, its the end of fun times in the hall, walking over to wfms finding notes, just veerything i know is going t be lost and to start over is going to be so hard. ive worked so hard for this life i live now, the friends i keep and to be on top and not happy is going to suck. if i have shared one of these experiences with you: thanks. because of you, i live a happier life. if i didnt share one of these wiht you, im sorry, but thats why we have our senior year to spend and make memories. but to those seniors who read my live journal, or those of you in college who read it, thanks for showing me the way, showing me to have fun. i love spending time with each of you and for those in college, i look forward to having time to spend with you when you come home. it eans a great deal to me. Mood: contemplative Music: only hope

	2005.02.27  17.32 not friends only so this isnt friends only to let you all know... a spider just bit me on the leg... HAHA im a dork. *and i listen to emo* Mood: dorky Music: Blaine Larson "How do you get that lonely"

	2005.01.12  21.19 actually i think im coming back.. maybe.. havent decided yet... but hellz its only going to be friends only... me and my 5 friends.,... BECAUsE NATALIE TOTALLY KICKED ME OFF! bitch... :P um well im still sick as a bitch... coughing up a lung, and a half. stupid HSA today one more day of grish 2 more days of the semester a few more days until i can see kate and franklin life is good Mood: sick Music: snow patrol (the cool new band, check em out)

	2004.12.24  11.12 its over well live journal is short lived... mom found out and i really dont wanna do friends only, seeing as though i only have like six friends. so if you really wanna know whats up with my life, just call me! Mood: tired Music: ashlee simpson (thats right bitches, ashlee simpson)

	2004.12.21  17.02 take a moment lets all take a moment to reflect: christmas... is about CHRIST>>> NOT GIFTS>>> so stop being selfish anyway today wasnt really exciting. yea REALLY not exciting. i think i need to eat. and yea so im going to go eat. o wait we did get candy in Latin, yea deffinatly bouncing off the walls. o yea we also saw that new russian kid.. hes big as hell, and he goes a 47 in his 100 free... now tell me that isnt fast Mood: bouncy Music: Mr. Brightside by the Killers

	2004.12.20  18.12 im hungry so there was this "fight" today. it happened RIGHT in front of me. wasnt even really a fight more like tommy threw keving on the table and was like choking him. im like DUDE what the fuck! man all i really wanted to do was eat... me and my food. i dont care if you fight man BUT NOT WHEN IM EATING! lol. and uh yea my muscles hurt. and uh yea i get to babysit tonight which means SHOPPING MONEY because i am not done yet. HOLLER Mood: hungry Music: silenceo

	2004.12.19  15.43 werd soooooo home from PITT... AWESOME AWESOME!!!!!!! like it was amazing.... literally. i didnt do so well swimming wise. like i matched my best time EXACTLY in the 50 free 26.61, and well we wont go into the 100 free. but that pool is so cool. i deff like the deep end better/ and wow those swimmers are amazing. so freaking fast... its kinda depressing though how fast they are... expecially when little kids go faster than you. but wow.. and the hotel. steeling the shoes and running around the hotel, then walking like a million miles just to go to panera and meet our "friend" who likes to make noises lol... anyway our hot lifegaurd friend lmao and throwing things out the window. fun times man fun times. ok so now im home and its depressing... i wanna be back there. it was snowing. but it was jsut amazing. YUK school tomorrow... Mood: crazy Music: Control by Alexisonfire

	2004.12.15  16.47 OK so last night was fun. After school me and Katie went to Costco like THE BEST place ever and went shopping for spirit bags... bad mistake lol.. damn clementines and yay for dunkaroos... they were yummy. then we got CRUSHED by TJ but you know what i dont give a shit. kels ra feel better! lol and today i wanted to slap spencer, well who doesnt. now to go help out with the angel tree thing! Mood: crazy Music: i think bob marley

	2004.12.13  20.37 Chrimson and clover wait is today monday? damn its monday... ok lemme get it out of the way... I HATE MONDAYS. ok so english, yeah that was pretty boring. ap calc, yeah that was pretty boring, latin, yeah no that wasnt boring, just spencer wouldnt shut the hell up. you need to stop that man, and biology, we got to watch our o so favorite movies *rolls eyes* and do this stupid-ass poster. ok so more like me, cori, dhara, and zoe had a marker fight and our pig was awesome multi-color. then it was off to practice since i had to be at FHS cuz of the meet tomorrow. lauren and aub were like noone is doing their workout and it makes me mad. that makes me sad what they said cuz honeslty i do my work EVERY day. 100% too and the day i feel like shit they complain. and i foind out im swimming the 200 IM and 100 free... poot.... then what o yea i had to do spirit bags. anna came up and helped. man they better appreciate those damn things lol.. the sad part is i wrote them in TJ colors -way to go ali, way to go- and now im procrastinating my english paper though i have a feeling i wont be doing any of it 2morrow becuase costco right after school, then meet, then roys. GAH plus i still have no feeling from yesterday. i have gone into a state of shock YEA Mood: drained Music: SOME JEW ( or jimmy eat world if you prefer

	2004.12.12  14.34 woowoo its all kels ra's fault i have one of these now :P and i like this better than myspace.com um yea i have to say goodbye to someone i love dearly and let her leave to new mexico. good luck ferry's, you will be in my prayers Mood: crushed Music: Ruby Soho by Rancid